Based on a Jnana Yagna with Gurudeva Sri Atmanandanatha of the sacred Guhananda Parampara of Sri Vidya Tantra.
Before I begin, I bow down to the entire Gurumandala, who has blessed us with such rare clarity and understanding. What I am sharing here is not theory or imagination, but a living understanding that slowly unfolded within me.
We all suffer in life. Not always because of today, but mostly because of tomorrow. We worry about what will happen. We fear loss. We fear failure. We fear death. Because of tomorrow, today becomes heavy. If tomorrow disappears from the mind, today suddenly becomes light. This is something very deep. Most of our suffering is not from the present moment. It is from the future that we imagine again and again.
Then there is desire. We believe desire gives us happiness. But actually, the stronger the desire, the stronger the restlessness. The more we want, the more afraid we become. Afraid of losing. Afraid of not getting. Afraid of being left behind. Strong desire always brings strong suffering. When desire slowly becomes weak, the heart becomes light. The mind becomes calm. Happiness comes quietly without making noise. This is something we rarely understand.
Now people come to mantra. They think mantra is magic. They think some power will come from outside and fix their life. That is not true. Mantra does not bring anything from outside. Mantra only rearranges what is already inside you. Slowly, gently, without drama, it changes your attention, your emotions, and your decisions. You do not force this change. It starts happening naturally with steady practice.
Then people talk about siddhi. They think siddhi means miracle. They think it is supernatural. But siddhi is not magic. Siddhi simply means that something which was already inside you now becomes available for use. Like when you train your body, strength appears. That strength was always possible. It was just not available. When you discipline your mind, stability appears. That stability was always hidden inside. Siddhi is exactly like that. Nothing new comes from anywhere. Something that was blocked becomes open.
When mantra works deeply, the first siddhi always happens inside. Fear becomes less. Memory becomes sharp. Focus becomes deep. Desires become weak. People usually ignore this. They are waiting for big outer miracles. But this inner change is the real miracle. This alone can change the direction of your entire life. If fear drops, your decisions change. If focus deepens, your actions change. If desire weakens, your suffering reduces. This is the first and most important siddhi. If someone has been doing sadhana for a long time and this has not happened, then somewhere the practice has become mechanical.
After this inner change settles, something else slowly begins to happen. Your behavior changes without you trying to change it. Your speech becomes clear and precise. Your reactions slow down. Your perception becomes sharp. Your timing improves. You start seeing things that you never saw before. Conflicts begin to dissolve. People respond to you differently. Opportunities appear naturally. Life starts flowing with less resistance. Then people say, “The deity helped me.” Devotion is fine. But what is actually happening is that your inner system has reorganized, and the world is responding to that change.
Then there is another stage of siddhi. This is a very tricky and dangerous stage. Here the nervous system enters extreme conditions. Breath may stop for some time. Pain may not be felt. Heat may be generated in the body. The senses may withdraw. Trance-like states may happen. The body becomes very strong. Shock can be tolerated. The mind becomes extremely fixed. These things look supernatural, but they are not magic. They happen because the biological and psychological system is pushed to extreme limits. Ancient books have described these states in different names. These are real experiences. But they are not liberation.
This is the stage where many people fall into a trap. Power appears, and the ego becomes intoxicated. The person starts feeling special. The person starts feeling superior. Control increases. Influence increases. And slowly the seeker forgets why the journey even started. The journey was for freedom, not for power. But now power becomes the new prison.
For the one who truly seeks the Self, these siddhis become obstacles. Not because they are fake, but because they keep the idea of “I am the doer” alive. As long as there is someone who is powerful and someone who is affected by that power, duality remains. But liberation is the end of duality. Liberation is not becoming powerful. Liberation is the collapse of the separate “I”.
True freedom is not expanding control over the world. True freedom is the end of the one who wants control. When that ends, there is no inside and no outside. No controller and no controlled. No seeker and no goal. Only being remains.
People think God is somewhere outside. That God is watching. That God is helping. But the real truth is this. God is not elsewhere. God is what remains when the false “I” disappears. You do not get God. You do not reach God. You simply stop being separate from what always is.
Mantra, siddhi, power, all these things come and go on the journey. But they are not the destination. They are just side effects. The real destination is the end of fear, the end of desire, the end of division, and the end of the illusion that we are small and separate.
When that collapses, nothing more is needed. Everything is already complete.
Author’s Note:
This article is a humble reflection drawn from a lived spiritual understanding. It is shared not as a teaching, but as an invitation to look inward and see how real change actually happens. If even one reader pauses, reflects, and turns slightly inward after reading this, the purpose of writing is fulfilled.
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