ityākarṇya vacastasya bhūpatēḥ praṇāyōditam
pratyuvāca sa taṃ vaiśyaḥ praśrayāvanatō nṛpam॥19॥
Hearing the king speaking in friendship, the merchant (vaishya) bowed respectively and replied.
vaiśya uvāca ॥20॥
samādhirnāma vaiśyōhamutpannō dhanināṃ kulē
putradārairnirastaśca dhanalōbhād asādhubhiḥ॥21॥
“My dear sir, I am a merchant, my name is Samadhi. I was born in a very wealthy family. My wife and children grew wicked and cast me out.”
vihīnaśca dhanaidāraiḥ putrairādāya mē dhanam।
vanamabhyāgatō duḥkhī nirastaścāptabandhubhiḥ॥22॥
Wife, children and wealth taken from me. That by my own people, took it all away from me. Everything! Now I am in the forest, distressed. Forsaken – by my trusted wife and children!
What a sad thing he is undergoing.
sōhaṃ na vēdmi putrāṇāṃ kuśalākuśalātmikām।
pravṛttiṃ svajanānāṃ ca dārāṇāṃ cātra saṃsthitaḥ॥23॥
“Being here, I know not what good fortune and or ill has befallen my wife, children and family”.
Look at that- “just another king”. He is in the forest now. He said that his wife and children have thrown him out. But now he is telling the king, wondering how his family is? What fortune or misfortune had fallen on them? How are they doing? etc.,.
This depicts his state of mind.
kiṃ nu tēṣāṃ gṛhē kṣēmaṃ akṣēmaṃ kiṃnu sāmprataṃ
kathaṃ tēkiṃnusadvṛttā durvṛttā kiṃnumēsutāḥ॥24॥
“At present I don’t know what is happening in my home, whether they are well off or misfortune has fallen on them”.
Why should he bother!
He was sent off. Right!
That’s the beauty of it all. Our own thoughts.
“I don’t know, how are my children? Are they being good with my wife?” He keeps on rambling like this.
Rājōvāca॥25॥
The king said:
yairnirastō bhavāṃllubdhaiḥ putradārādibhirdhanaiḥ॥26॥
tēṣu kiṃ bhavataḥ snēha manubadhnāti mānasam॥27॥
Those greedy sons and wife, and others who disposed of your wealth. Why should their state bother you? Why does your mind think of them! Good question! Interesting! He ( king) has left everybody, thrown off by his own clan. He was thinking of his own kingdom, his citizens, his wife and all just a few moments ago. Now, he is asking the same question to the merchant.
vaiśya uvāca ॥28॥
Merchant said.
ēvamētadyathā prāha bhavānasmadgataṃ vacaḥ
kiṃ karōmi na badhnāti mama niṣṭuratāṃ manaḥ॥29॥
Yes, My dear sir! This very thought came to my mind also! What can I do? My mind is not able to be that “nishtura”( Hard). I know that nothing is there with me, “Kim karo mi? ”What shall I do with this attachment? “na badmathi mama nishturatha manaha”. My mind is not able to be that nishtura. I have all these years of attachment. Even though they have thrown me out, I can’t be that hard “ nishtura”.
This is the beauty of Durga sapthasathi.
aiḥ santyajya pitṛsnēhaṃ dhana lubdhairnirākṛtaḥ
patiḥsvajanahārdaṃ ca hārditēṣvēva mē manaḥ। ॥30॥
But still, I yearn with affection for those who drove me away. Scroning love for father, husband and king’s mind. What to do.
kimētannābhijānāmi jānannapi mahāmatē
yatprēma pravaṇaṃ cittaṃ viguṇēṣvapi bandhuṣu॥31॥
I have recognised this, but I still don’t understand how my thoughts/mind goes with love for people who threw me out.
tēṣāṃ kṛtē mē niḥśvāsō daurmanasyaṃ cajāyatē॥32॥
karōmi kiṃ yanna manastēṣvaprītiṣu niṣṭhuram ॥33॥
What can I do with this situation?
Note: The article is based on the Jnana Yajna sessions conducted by ‘Atmanandanatha’ Guruji.
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